FINALLY!!!after begging my mum...
i could play the comp today!
YIPEE!!!
the chinese paper was freaking difficult!!!!
i felt like killing the setter!!!
bishh*
I WAS SO FED UP THAT I STARTED BASHING THE AIR LOR!!!!
kekeke...
joyjoy, pohyin, jiahui and i was talking about how to "punish" the tcher..
laugh until i cannot stand properly..
anyways.
just wish i can do well..
good luck for my papers!!!!
for me,
it doesn't matter if joy isn't in the same class as me next year..
BUT!!
joyjoy said she's
tired of being in the same class as me!!
T.T hurt*
i said that cuz we would be able to go to sku and go home together since we live so near each other..i'm sure our fwenship will still continue even if we're in a diff class!
i'm totally hurt!
she's so mean!!!!!
tho i said that.. i do hope that joyjoy and i would be in e same class..
tsk..
did she really mean what she said?
.....
really wann to be in e same class as jiahui and pohyin..
cuz..
i think if different class denn the friendship will end le...
i seriously dun like to talk on phone...
and jiahui always dun wann to go out..
both jiahui and pohyin are in a different cca from me..
really dunwan to end this fwenship..
i'm just starting to get attached to their presence...
can't imagine how empty i'll feel without them...
my heart feels so uncomfortable now....
sometimes i wonder...
"do they feel the same about me?"
i'm like a leach...
always sticking to them..
why?
cuz i like being with them...
but to them, i think i'm a lil irritating...
joy feels tired being in the same class as me..
how about taupok and teddy?
do they feel uneasy/irritated when i'm around?
like: "why is this girl so freaking noisy?"
or "she should just go away..."
or " why is she even here, gosh! i hate her.. she should really go and die.."
or " is she stupid? why is she always disturbing me with those maths qns?"
whatever they feel..
i'm going to stick to them all my life..
they are the first batch of friends i ever felt so easy with...
i can joke and behave like how i am at home..
they're like my family...
with them, i feel comfortable..
they could let me forget about unhappy stuff..
i feel safe around my friends.
though it's a lil mushy...
but i do love them..
all 3 are as important as any organs on my body..
i wouldn't want to lose them..
ppl says "friends made in sec school are for life.."
but how true is that?
we'll see next year...
i'm confident about how i feel towards them..
but how about them towards me?
i'm lost..
i just wish they could tell me..
i really want to know..
i would rather them telling me
"shut up and get lost, bitch!"
than being so nice to me and them hating me inside..
i'm scared..
my personality is not so well-liked by ppl..
i'm known to be weird...
i'm scared that my besties find me irritating too...
sign*
i'm feeling so stress now...
all 3 of them are in e top-10 class's standard eh!!
and me?
highest i ever get till now in sec school is 19th in class...?
how am i going to enter double science with them?!
my chinese is going to fail...
i'm 80% sure...
gonna work really hard for the rest of the subject..
or else i think i'm going to get retained...
and get separated from my "love"...
lols..
maybe for "bu ping fan de ai"
i should have written this..
maybe tcher would be so touched that she gives me a high mark..
AHH~
GOOD LUCK TO ALL!
AND GOOD LUCK TO ME TOO!!