haiz..
i just made my dad angry by saying that i dun want to skip sku to go indo cuz i have exams the following week!
and he said he booked the tickets liao!
so? exam leh!!!
if i fail, the one getting affected is not him, but me lor!!
i dun want to fail any paper and i CANNOT fail!
he's probably the only father who will get angry when his children say: "daddy, i dun want to go on a holiday eh, i want to revise"...
wtf?!
SHOULDN'T HE BE LIKE..." OH!! MY DEAR DAUGHTER, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU THAT I WANT TO HANG YOU ON THE FLAGPOLE TO SHOW OFF MY WONDERFUL DAUGHTER!!"
no?
maybe not, hanging your daughter on a flagpole sounds stupid..
and i think i'm so heavy that the metal flagpole will bend into a semi-circular shape..
ZZZZZ...
need to lose weight la~
for 3 days i brisk-walk for 2km and i sweated like mad and the results is....
1KG?!
UGH!!!
i lost 10kg in one months just on eating sliming pills everyday..
but i almost gained it all back!!
eat = nvr eat lor..
zzzz..
really must be consistant!
be it exercise or eating sliming pills, it must be done constantly lor..
cannot stop de..
i think i'm hooked on sliming pills..
do you think so?
i got it so much from the doctor that the doctor says i should stop..
if i go this time round, it'll be the 6th or 7th packet?
but i think i really need to buy sliming pills..
sliming pills + exercise, double the effort, double the results?
any recommendation for sliming pills?
i heard there are side-effects for overdose of sliming pills..
some ppl will get stomach-problems, intestine problems.. and some just die..
luckily, i'm not one of those..
but i might be one of them if i continue to turn myself into a sliming-pill-container...
do you think i care?
yes, i don't...
i'm going all in to lose weight..
even if i die, i want to die beautifully..
i dun want to be so fat that i can't even be stuffed into the coffin!
how embarrassing is that?!
i dun want a extra-large coffin!
i've been livng with XL all my life!!!
NVR!!!
i dun want a xl-coffin... i really dunwan...
i dun understand why life is so hard for me..
some girls are born to be chio...
eat tons of junk food still skinny like hell!
and me...
i just need to eat 1 packet of tibits.. the next day, i'll gain a kg..
some girls are born with fair and flawless skin...
me?
patches of rashes here and there!
the only thing i'm proud of myself is my height..
167cm? at least i'm not a dwarf..
but what's the point of being tall when i'm fat..
i won't look nice on clothes...
i want to wear nice clothes...
i want to dress like a girl..not an auntie!!!
i'm only 15, i want to dress like a 15 years old!
not 45!
i'm disgusted by my looks..
but at least i could go out or look into the mirror now...
i used to be so disgusted that i nvr want anyone to see me.. including myself..
i have a horror of going anywhere alone..
without someone to talk to, i can't raise my head up..
cuz i keep thinking about my appearance..
there's no one to talk to... no one to distract me from my thoughts..
everytime ppl walk pass me, i have a habit of turning away or looking down onto the floor!
i can't survive without my friends.. seriously..
but i'm forcing myself to go out as often as possible!
why should i be embarassed of being joycelyn?!
there are ppl who says i'm not fat..
i'm only plump...blah blah blah..
c'mon!!
is it anywhere better!!
isn't it saying..
"you're not a beast, you're just ugly"
or "you're not a retard, you're just stupid"
or "you're not revolting, you're just disgusting"
it just makes me feel worse!!
i would rather ppl say "you're so fat!!!"
tell me the truth!
getting hurt directly is better than getting hurt indirectly!
no one understands the pain of being fat!
i'm 70kg! okay?!
i'm heavier than 99% of the ppl in school!
i'm a monster!!!
so?!
you think i like it?!
no!! obviously!!
i hate my body so much that i wish i could just slice of the meat!!!
but does it make sense to slice your own meat off?!
i'm just look worse without skin...
some ppl get teased about their weight..
they dun hear it, so they won't get hurt!
at the end of the day,the one who feels the pain is me!!
cuz i'm actually fatter and heavier!
i dun understand what's so funny about being fat!?
is it abnormal?!
thin ppl out there!
so what if you're thin!!
or so what if you're thinner?!
are you so proud of yourself that you have to put others down?!
don't you have mirrors at home?!
are you so confident of your looks that you can comment on my looks?!
if you're that confident...well, let me tell you..
you look like a piece of shit!
can you respect us!
even if we are fat, we have feelings too!
i hate ppl laughing at others..
cuz the one you should be laughing at is yourself..
look at yourself!
are you anywhere better?!
commenting is ok..it's just a comment..
but laughing?!
laughing just stabs the knife-of-insults deeper into the heart!
no one have the rights to mock others!
don't you understand?!
being thin and slim and tall and have big boobs or whatever doesn't mean you're hot..
that rotten mouth is just revolting!
words and words that come out of your mouth is just CHEAP!
but if being cheap is your hobby, i can't help it..
but do you know...
all my horrors of being fat, came from you!!!
everytime i find myself disgusting, i get reminded of you!!
yes you! the wonderful girl studying in ST.ANDREWS!
-rolls eyes-
so what?
being brainy doesn't mean that you're a cutie!
having big eyes doesn't mean you're a hottie!
just because i'm fat..
i can't live with pride...
you took my confidence away from me!!!
you took my pride away from me!!!
no one can insult me... never!
you can try, but be prepared for the worse..
there's a limit to my patience..
when people are forced to the ends, they'll do anything..
i'm now only a few steps to the end of my limit..
don't force me to shoot those words back.. at least for now..
you'll nvr want to hear..
i'll accept all the insults now with open arms.
when i slim down..
when i get my face done..
i'll have all the insults thrown back to you!
i'll return my pain..10 times of it to you!!
it's not only the st.andrew "princess"...
there's still you, you, you, you, you, you , you and you!
17 of you!
do you remember what you've said?
don't be too shock if i happen to smack a pile of shit on your faces..
it's just me..
i'm a very polite person..
i always return what i get...
i finally understand what ppl meant when they say all beings are born with kindness.. it's the environment that forces them to change..
i'm one of those people..
i've been insulted so much that insulting others became my habit...
i always believed that it's the character that counts...
i'm wrong...
if you're ugly, it's the end of your life..
humans are all hyprocites!
they say:"although you're ugly, but you're kind-hearted"
but they'll think: "kind-hearted...yea, but not the type for me, cuz you're ugly."
no?
ugly people nvr gets a place in this world!
is there a ugly pageant?
no... cuz no one is proud to be ugly!
that's the reason why beauty parlors existed..that's the reason why there are many designs for cl0thes, that's the reason why make-up existed, that's the why plastic surgery existed...
branded clothes, branded handbag, facials, make up foundation, blush, eyeliner, mascara, hair dyes, braces, double eyelid surgery, nose job, boob job, etc..
there's nvr ending of things to list..
cuz everyone is trying so hard to turn beautiful...
when everyone wants to be beautiful..
where in the world can, we, ugly people stand?
no where but hell...