while i'm reading SHAO NIAN WEN ZAI...trying to complete the 21 chinese book reviews...

i'm thinking..
WHY AM I DOING THIS?
WHY MUST I STUDY?

ppl says study=future..
but i dun see that point!

i have no dreams!
nothing for me to strive for!!
idk why i'm here strugggling to finish my hmwrk!
this isn't what i really want!!!

i hate studying!
but i have to study!

haiz..

my life sucks!
no talent.
no brains.
no money.
no 身材.
no beauty.
no dreams.
not cute.
not attractive.


being bimbotic is so easy to others and yet so difficult and impossible for me..
bimbos are pretty but brainless.
i'm ugly and brainless.
i really have nth to my name.
what i have is lumps of fats!
if i'm born a pig, i might be very valuable.
but since i'm a human being, those fats are as worthless as shit..
oh wait..
shit can be used a fertilizer.
but fats?
it got no use but to deprive you from pride and happiness.

geeez....
life is so unfair.
[[unfair to ppl like me..
and sooo fucking fair to ppl like SNSD..=.= ]]